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Knowing there is something I need to take care of and not finding a way to take a step towards it creates a weighty cocktail of frustration and anxiety. Suspended in this place of seeing the destination without finding the ability to take the next step, I am weighed down by what feels like a thousand pounds. With some variations one might have a similar feeling in putting off fixing a relationship, finishing an assignment, making that medical appointment or even getting to your huge to do list.
For quite a while now I have been considering something – looking at it from every angle, thinking out all possible outcomes, worrying about it. Finally this week, sick of being filled with this negative swirling of emotion whenever I thought about this issue, I realised that taking some action – any action – was better than being stuck in that heavy place full of frustration and anxiety. My realization was this – any step (even a wrong one) is better than making no move at all. The transformative power is in making a choice and then taking some action. I reminded myself that it will either be a good choice or it won’t. If it’s not, my world will not end; some of the most powerful learning and growth comes when we make mistakes. Having let go of the idea that there is a perfect next move and it’s my job to find it, I was spurred on towards the goal to get my overseas qualification as a social worker recognized here in Canada. With the application filled out and arrangements made with my South African University I felt buoyant and energized. Gone was the frustration, the anxiety and the weight of a decision not made.
In the words of Nelson Mandela, “It always seems impossible until it’s done”.
Here’s to living with clarity, courage, compassion and confidence.